I have never been in therapy and never considered one. Aside from the process being very time-consuming, it is also expensive. I find it unreasonable since I know I will only talk to a professional for an hour and rant about my feelings. They will only listen, and I will only talk. But that’s just my personal opinion. In a professional sense, a therapist helps a lot in diagnosis, prescribed medication, and treatment, especially when depressed. But is that enough reason for me to seek help?
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Emotional And Mental State
I have read a lot of articles and watched a couple of videos about my mental and emotional state. The thing about these pieces of information is that they always tell me the signs and symptoms of my condition. However, it doesn’t seem easy to agree on these details when I try and evaluate them.
Yes, I am sad and want to isolate myself from people. It has been said that it is a common sign of depression. However, on my part, I only wanted to have “me time,” which is why I keep things to myself. And regarding the sadness I am feeling, I think it is just a random reaction of my body from constantly laughing hours before the former emotion.
With all the stress and daily problems I face, I am not sure I genuinely have to seek professional therapy. Or should I?
Changes That Affect My Life
With the supposed depression I have, I am more concerned about how I treat others. I am always aware of my abilities and skills when it comes to communication and creating connections. I guarantee that they are superb. I can make friends in a minute because I am an outgoing person who knows how to engage with others. I basically understand facial expressions and body language, which is an edge to my social skills.
However, I might have unintentionally pushed some people away due to the emotional strain; I don’t know how it started or where it came from. I must admit to making sudden changes in my social interaction, which undeniably affects my relationships.
There were times that after building a connection with someone, I might suddenly feel a lack of interest in that particular individual, which often resulted in ghosting. I am not proud of it, but I keep telling myself that it is not my fault that I don’t find that person interesting anymore.
The attempt to understand the sudden changes in my social engagement made me conclude that it was just my desire to eliminate unnecessary people in my life. Or is that it?
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What Makes It Difficult To Seek Help?
Honestly, I think it is not about the depressive symptoms that are entirely bothering me; instead, it is the therapy treatment experience. I couldn’t picture myself opening up to a stranger about my deepest and darkest secrets that even I would never want to talk about. I am unsure if I am confident enough to share the worse parts of myself and expect the professional therapist not to judge or say anything against me.
The difficulty thinking about asking for professional advice is not the condition itself, but the idea of someone knowing things about me and perhaps can’t do anything to fix it. I think I am just afraid that things will remain the same despite all my efforts and the courage I gave into the therapy treatment process. I will still have thoughts of self-harm, and my emotions will never be in the right place.
Aside from those over-the-top thoughts, I may have issues with others telling me what to do. I am not used to seeking other people’s help, and I often resolve my issues alone. I am confident in my ability to help myself even in the darkest hours. Therefore, seeking professional advice can be quite challenging for me. And accept other individuals’ opinions regarding my feelings and behavior is something that can put me off at some point.
So should I still seek therapy for that?
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Final Thoughts
For those of you who want to know if you need therapy or not, it would probably be best to consult one when your depression is turning your life into a mess. If your mental and emotional state is at risk, asking for a professional opinion would be the safest and most appropriate thing you can do.
Me, I am still in the process of learning the importance and benefits of therapy treatment. I am not in haste to seek professional help since I can still manage and control my depressive state at some point. But if I ever come up with the position that I can no longer function properly, I am open to seeking professional advice and possibly undergoing mental health treatment.